Father Simeon Daly, OSB - Finding Grace in the Moment: Stories and other Musings of an Aged Monk


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The Visit
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I want to record a special visit. This is not a story with a crash ending, but one that I would like to record.

For some years now I have been taking medicine to thin my blood. The theory is that should my heart go into fibrillation, the thinned out blood will be less apt to coagulate in the bottom of the malfunctioning heart. The danger of such coagulation is that a blood clot might be forced into the system causing a stroke or a heart attack. I had been duly warned of this possibility. I was not unduly distressed about my condition, but when I was in intensive care after surgery in November of 1995 and my heart began thumping about 160 times a minute, I watched the monitor with more anxiety than I care to admit. At that particular time I had been off the anticoagulant for two weeks. Presumably there was a strong potential for clotting.

I have come to be more relaxed about my condition in the time since. I have had a half a dozen or more of such episodes. While I am still aware of dire possibilities, I am not so much alarmed when it occurs. Time and experience have tempered my fears.

It so happened that on that Friday afternoon in November, I was expecting a visit. A lady with whom I had worked for almost ten years had promised to come. I looked forward to her visit both because I was somewhat lonely in the hospital, but, also, because her friendship is very special to me. I was lodged somewhere in the inner workings of the Intensive Care Unit. Fearing that she would have a hard time locating me, I had forewarned all the nurses of her intended visit so they could help her find her way to my bedside. Before she came, my heart began to act up.

The negative images I had developed of my condition put me in considerable distress. When she finally arrived, I was torn between the desire to visit and the dread of her being there and witnessing some trauma. I know I was not able to explain all that to her at the moment. I risked hurting her feelings rather than have her be there to witness me in the throes of a stroke or a heart attack. I kissed her hand and said: "Please go." She went and I cried.

I am not sorry that I was able to think of her feelings in that hour of trial. My memory of my feelings is etched deep in my heart. I remember it as one of my most painful moments.
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